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My Larger Goals for 2012:
Grow my magic focused writing
Grow my crafting business
Work on personal magical practice
Work on body love while working on eating and exercise habits
Enjoy our year of engagement together
Pay off my credit card debt
Do more fun things
Bite sized pieces for between now and Valentine's Day:
Magic focused writing:
Have a powwow with my PEH, Gordon, and a few others about how to go about getting my first booklet out. (mostly done)
Investigate small occult presses, Kindle Direct and Amazon direct (done)
Write and submit an article monthly to Witchvox (done for this month)
Come up with a premise for said booklet (done)
Start writing a short course and test out a delivery system for it (Jan)
Investigate costs related to using my own illustrators and editors (in progress)
Grow my crafting business:
Release my first magic/fragrance oil for boys (thanks to AIT!) before Valentine's Day
Release my Goddess of the Hearth essential oil blend before Valentine's Day
Work on my Goddess Dollies next week since I have some extra time
Work on restocking my wares
Figure out my craft show "bunny trail" in Jan for restarting in March
Work on body love while working on eating and exercise habits:
Dress well as I am right now (a constant work in progress)
Focus on what I'm putting into my body
Start exercising two to three times a week regularly and sustainably (next week)
Love my body right now as is (a constant work in progress)
Enjoy our year of engagement together:
Plan something to do for Valentine's Day to celebrate the egregor of love together
Start being more list conscious again (next week)
Do new things together for our dates
Get dressed up for each other
Personal magical practice:
Start japa'ing every day (next week)
Start evening practice (next week)
Finish Spare Oom (next week)
Do our first rit together (next new moon)
Pay off credit card debt:
I'm already consolidated, so it's just a matter of continuing the work I started and paying off minor credit cards.
Do more fun things:
My bff and I currently have plans to go to a goth night in a couple weeks
Spaghetti taco night was fun
Keep my eyes open for new and interesting things to do and not settle into hibernation mode
Do magic so that I have things to work on. Write enchantments. Meet with Certain Spirits
Grow Craft Business
Outsource to Jow for prosperity work as he does a good job with it for my crafting.
Continue meeting with Certain Spirits
Credit Card Debt
Continue my own prosperity magic which I've gotten lazy about. Poor honeypot. >:\
Do More Fun Things
Continue glamoury rituals pre-fun things.
"Horse and I" Bat for Lashes through Pandora. Well that's terrifying.
(Got woken in the night, / by a mystic golden light. / My head soaked in river water. / I had been dressed in a coat of armor. They called a horse out of the woodland. / "Take her there, through the desert shores." /They sang to me, "This is yours to wear. You're the chosen one, there's no turning back now." / The smell of redwood giants. /The banquet for the shadows. /Horse and I, we're dancers in the dark. /Came upon the headdress. /It was gilded, dark and golden. /The children sang. /I was so afraid I took it to my head and prayed. /They sang to me, "This is yours to wear. You're the chosen one, there's no turning back." /They sang to me, "This is yours to wear. You're the chosen one, there's no turning back." /There is no turning back. /There is no turn. /There is no turning back. /There is no turn. /There is no turning back. /There is no turn)
Housewives Tarot, Four card spread
Two of Cups
Five of Pentacles
Knight of Pentacles
Basically, I need to be able to balance everything for everything to work right and to make sure that I get enough down time and don't get discouraged by potential financial problems (maybe a loss of a job, an appendix, my car, who knows) and to use my ambition wisely to fuel all my projects not just the fun ones basically. Things may not go according to plan but I need to keep pushing anyway.
Me: So . . . what's holding me back here?
My Muse (bored): The same thing that holds you back every night, Pinkie. You get afraid and you freak yourself out and you stop yourself before you get to awesome.
Me: So how do I fix that?
My Muse: Stop doing it.
Me: Your divine helpfulness never ceases to amaze me.
Me: What's holding me back from losing weight?
Spirit: You're afraid to be empty. And alone.
Me: What! Where the fuck did that come from? I guess it must be right if I managed to get startled by the answer. I didn't think I was lonely but I guess I do a lot of things including eating to be not lonely? And I guess while I never spread my legs to fill me up a la Amanda Palmer's "Runs in the Family" I guess I do open my mouth a lot to fill me up.
Before I start eating something now, especially if it's something questionable, I remind myself that I'm not empty and that seems to help a lot. The gym is just a matter of routine, the food stuff gets more complicated and spiritual/psychological which I am carefully unwinding.